Comfort Zone

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As a person who lives constantly in her comfort zone, I face a continuous loop of what if and buts before I let myself out of the boundary.

 many doubts that raise in my mind each time and toss me off day and night; the 'what if' playlist plays itself in the background during my daily chore; creeps under my blanket at night and clench me. I had shuttered all the ways but it somehow keeps finding its way again to me. I realized this is getting me nowhere; not a bit closer to the bridge that I have to cross to be a person that I always wanted to become.

Then I decided to release the binding contract I have with fears; I decided that my happiness will not attach with my doubts; I decided to face the reality; to go with the flow of the wave; to let the change happen; to not build walls around to confine myself. I let it happen because the thought of not living in the present horrified me more than the thought of what the future holds for me.

I'm still the person who lives in her comfort zone but now the boundary is extended. It gets extended each time I allow a change in my life. With the boundary I see myself growing each time; moving towards the bridge with every step I take. But I do not deny the fact that I'm afraid of change, that it would make my life inside out but I'm glad that I'm not confined; I'm not shackled; my road of growth is not stagnant; it gives me the feeling of being more alive and I'm grateful for that.

When I realized, I snatched the power of controlling my happiness and growth from these loops of doubt.